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8.16.2013

wholewheat banana zucchini muffins


{warning: this is a serious post. cuz I have serious things on meh brain. ugh boring, i know.}

It's no lie, the past month has been tough on me in a million ways. As I've mention before, our American teammates went back to the US for 6 months in July and it's been really hard adjusting to life without them here. Since I'm home schooled, I really don't have many opportunities to get out and meet people other than church and youth group. Of course, I know people. I know many people, but have only had few friendships click that I really want to invest in. Sometimes I think to myself "Do people around here ever DO stuff? Or am I just missing out?" I'm gonna be honest. After months of stepping out of my comfort zone and always being the first one to ask to hang out, I'm really tired of trying. Trying to put myself out there. It's tiring and I feel like in the long run, it's getting me nowhere. I can't even remember the last time I got a text saying "Hey, wanna hang out later?" or "Hey, wanna watch a movie tonight?" I feel like some sort of freak always being the one to ask only to be the one who's let down time and time again . No matter how who's here or who isn't, I need to learn to be content with the quiet. Or in my case, a million little boys running in and out of the house. I can't tell you how many times in these last weeks I've been inches away from hitting rock bottom. Sick of the loneliness. Sick of the nothingness. Sick of the boredom… What I wouldn't do for days filled with going to the mall, sports games, running miscellaneous errands, and people to see. 


Anyhoo, sorry for that. I just needed to let it out. When I'm not feeling the happiest, there is one thing I do and one thing only- I crank up the radio, switch on the oven, throw on an apron, and let all those cruddy thoughts slip away. No idea why exactly, but the past week I've been really craving zucchini muffins. I decided to take the day off of school {homeschool! yay!}, do an hour of yoga, take a hot bath, and then whip up something yummy to destress myself. I was totally planning on putting chocolate in these because, umm. Hello. Not much else can cheer a girl up than chocolate… Well maybe a Hemsworth. A Hemsworth made of chocolate? Yes. That. Back on subject. I totally forgot the chocolate which is kindaaaaaa not like me. I never forget such things. But if you'd like some added greatness, I think some uber dark stuff would be divine. 


wholewheat banana zucchini muffins

2-3 bananas, mashed
2 c. shredded zucchini
2 eggs
3/4 c. plain greek yogurt
1/2 c. dark brown sugar
1/3 c. honey
2 c. wholewheat flour
2 tsp. baking powder

Preheat oven to 375ºF and grease or line a muffin tin; set aside. In a large bowl, whisk bananas, zucchini, eggs, yogurt, honey, and brown sugar until smooth. Add wholewheat flour and baking powder. Stir until combined. Scoop batter into prepared muffin tin and bake for 25-30 minutes or until golden brown and a toothpick inserted comes out clean. Let cool completely after transferring to a wire rack.

2 comments:

  1. These muffins not only look delicious but sound very healthy too...I never would have thought of putting chocolate in them but some dar k might just be what the doctor ordered. Hope you have a good week-end. As for the loneliness - I don't think you are the only one. In today's world it seems more the norm than the exception. Everyone is sooo busy! Too busy and there doesn't seem to be the community things that once went on. I wish it would go back that way. If you were near though I would hang out with you - have a great day.

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  2. Oh my deliciousness!!! They look amazing - I will be making these tomorrow for my 4 little kidlets. I love that they are not super sweet or super oily. About the friendship thing, maybe you're just a 1 or 2 friend person. I am. I'm 37 and I have 1 really close friend, and my sister who is super close as well. But I know feeling blue too. This too shall pass, friend. You are a great articulate blogger!

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