Things are all of a sudden moving quickly. Boxes are being packed. Belongings are being sold. Memories are being remembered. Goodbyes are being said. And time is being savored.
The thought of what the next few weeks and months hold send my mind spinning. I'm overjoyed, excited, and relieved to be heading home. But when you're in one place for two and a half years, there's something still there, pulling you back, asking you to please not leave.
I have difficulty falling asleep at night, reliving old memories of game nights with friends, pool parties, and singing in the streets past dark. But those memories fade to gray and I'm brought to now; the reality that things have changed since then. The thought of going back home, starting over, and beginning a new journey sends shivers down my spine. I can't wait.
These next few weeks, I'm vowing to relish in every moment left here. To soak it all in, tucking these moments away to relive when I'm no longer here, but 9,000 miles across the globe.
There's a limited amount left of coffee dates with my parents, trips out to see kids who have stolen my heart, peaceful mind-clearing evening runs, and game and movie nights with my family. It's hard to believe that soon these things will be nothing but used-to-be's. But the future excites me. New adventures, new challenges, new people, new lessons to learn. It's all so exciting to me.
Please bare with me over the next few weeks and months as my life speeds up and my blog slows down.
salted caramel peanut butter cups (raw & vegan)
1/2 c. coconut oil, melted
3 tbsp. honey/maple syrup
1/4 c. unsweetened cocoa powder
dash of vanilla
pinch of sea salt
peanut butter filling:
3 tbsp. creamy peanut butter
1 tbsp. honey/maple syrup
1 tbsp. coconut oil
1/2 c. chopped dates
1 tbsp. honey/maple syrup
dash of vanilla extract
Begin by preparing the chocolate coating, whisking together all ingredients until smooth. If it seems to liquiddy, let chill for a few minutes until it thickens up. Pour into 10 small paper cups, coating the sides. Reserve about 1/3 c. of chocolate and set aside. Place chocolate cups in freezer and chill while you prepare the fillings. First, prepare the peanut butter filling by whisking all ingredients until smooth; set aside. In a small bowl, soak dates in boiling water. Drain and place in a blender. Add sweetener and vanilla and pulse until smooth, adding more water as needed. Take chocolate cups from freezer. Spoon peanut butter filling into each cup and repeat with caramel. Top with remaining chocolate. Chill for 5-6 hours or overnight. Store in freezer.